It's been log time I have not wroth..
I kind of missing myself. it's been crazy ups and downs in last 12 months, look like I was on firmament, going round and round. every time came to down point thought I'm done and it's over but again before I notice start to run...
It's funny how life can be revolving and time won't stop. I have learned a lot in this process got wiser, smarter and braver.
I use to be quite and in the name of respect keep down but I found my voice and stand taller now. I guess for year of though time I did great and gain on right way, so let say I'm proud of myself now...
the secret is should not lose HOPE, and ignore the surrounding just focus on target.
Lady,
Don't abandon of yourself, be yourself umbrella, be yourself cloud, be yourself rani.
No doubt, GOD is genius to create you, forget his humans which disregard your femanish world...
Lady,
you eat warm Naan first, this time. all olive in the world is yours, this time...
when you got cold feet, don't sob your loneliness، sing it. sing it load for warming your own heart.
Don't show your loneliness with crying ever, even you sing alone. keep your lullaby for yourself, this time...
Lady,
it would be great, be guest of yourself for afternoon tea.
when tea is ready don't forget to wear your mini skirt, sugar cube will melt in jar when you drink acid taste of tea load...
Lady,
laugh heartfelt, laugh at life.
which if wasn't for your felling and kindness they would not judgement and would not order to legitimacy your freedom, have to report anywhere you go.
i know, their saying and their want it fell not only your ears even your soul...
Lady,
Kind, sleep heartfelt, so you can forget little words which have broken your heart...
Real Lady, GOD loan existence peace in your eyes, your hug and right on your lips, go to hell who ever mess with your peaceful soul, go to hell who ever can't see your beautiful soul but knows well ups and downs of your body.
between us, GOD is shameful of caress's spot left on your body.
Lady,
how are you feeling? how long have been not dreaming? by the way, still crying? you promise won't show your loneliness with crying, are you still waiting to hear, I LOVE YOU...?!
Let's change the subject.
let your hair grow longer, let them breath under scarf.
don't forget red nail polish, GOD create all pink, red just for you.
it's been long crows talking about peacocks.
let them keep gossiping, you don't forget your earrings.
you wish any time, bring your hand out of car and touch the wild body of wind. you wish any time, talk laugh load.
dance everyday, wish with your heart instrument or wish with...
Just, don't forget read book.
Lady,
beautiful and complete
you are specific taste of GOD, that GOD which seat, put leg over leg and draw love over your dear soul's canvas.
so you are the finest...
Lady,
the finest GOD's pome is you, laugh from bottom of your heart and leave feelings can't read you in your eyes...
I dedicate this to all women in world and dearest ladies in my life...
Why lie?
What's lie anyway?
Some people think life or personality is like business. they try to sell themselves to buy prestige, respect,reputation...
The mask they use it totally fake, their worlds, thoughts, believes, faith is false.
If we look around ourselves we will be able to see the truth, it's just we don't want too! our eyes been use to see just front of nose...
Whole world is busy to put up the show, the show is all drama, dirty and massy.
The media, politic, celebrity, religious, even normal people like US...
I think the person lies, its look like beautiful colour balloon, which is have eye catching appearance but its totally empty inside...!
The Liars are DELUSIONAL...
I hate liars, i have told them so so so many times.
She is IDIOT...
She have no shame, one after other relive WTF she have done! but won't learn...
It was day, I was lost in my head because I got wake-up slap from life and I was dazed by it.
I was new in anonymous world. It’s our way of thinking showed that who we are in this kind of world, so i happened to know beautiful talented artist human I have ever came cross, someone with all soul in her art. Some how became easy to read her thought to me and that’s made me start talking to her and she is so big, kind heart person start to listening.
The answer to my problems was in her art, those answers got me out of confusion, and I start looking to myself in the mirror again…
I found a woman was lost in life process, dugout and put myself together again piece by piece.
We became friends in face off world, which we can be anyone and anything want to be real or fake, but once you have pure soul will come cross beautiful soles which they are noting then heart. It’s a feeling you get real, true, pure so then you be connected.
The way you feel like you know other for long time so you allow yourself step out of line and become close in conversations, I just been lucky to be accepted with her kind heart that much become so real which kind of not face off world anymore.
It’s relations between hearts, minds, visions, mysteries and power of saying which we have in our own ways. That what I call TRUE FIRENDSHIP, you will be there anytime and any thing for an other. Will do what you can to show the road to dream, dream which is be best at your self. When we learn the best point of our self we are living the dream, then happiness, confident, pureness happens in our soul.
I saw in her and I leaned, I’m getting there.
The true friendship is mirror which she or he can show you what you need to see!!!
I can't repay her for changes she brought in to my life, accept work harder in my read so she can see my dream.
I'm so thankful to GOD for blessing me with her friendship...
I was sitting next to the only stranger I known 9 years ago. It was most sweet bitter kind of the day. I was cutting my past and starting some thing new in never land, The land I didn't know with stranger.
Most people of my life call that biggest mistake Of my life, but I'm so happy to did that mistake it turn out to be the best one...!
It's been ups and downs road up to here but still is joyful and I want more of this journey with him, as matter affect don't want this life with out him.
Hey most well known stanger of my life, you are best thing ever happen to me...
You know the bed feels warmer
sleeping here alone
you know i dream in color
and do the things i want
You think you got the best of me
think you had the last laugh
bet you think that every thing good is gone
think you left me broken down
think that i'd come running back
baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
stand a little taller
doesn't mean i'm lonely when i'm alone
what doesn't kill you makes a fighter
footsteps even lighter
doesn't mean i'm over cause you're gone
You heard that i was starting over with someone new
but told you i was moving on over you
you didn't think that i'd come back
i'd come back swinging
you try to break me
thanks to you i got a new thing started
thanks to you i'm not a broken hearted
thanks to you i'm finally thinking bout me
you know in the end the day to left was just my begging in the end
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
stand a little taller
doesn't mean i'm lonely when i'm alone
what doesn't kill you makes a fighter
footsteps even lighter
NOT BROKEN COMPLETELY... YET....